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I miss my sister

03 June 2009
Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
The two of us shared a room

and supposely chores

she would find every possible way of getting out of her share


reading story books to her

later tutoring her


playing store, hair salon and school


playing board games together


watching TV shows

Saturday morning cartoons


listening to music together


silly dances


who can be the goofiest...

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
Back in the fall I found lots of papers

some were about my sister's efforts to bring her rapist to justice


it was a rather sorrowful discovery





to be continued

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
:candle: :candle: :candle: :candle:



:candle: :candle: :candle: :candle:

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER
of sis, me and baby brother together


to be continued

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER
TRIGGER WARNINGS !!!

She was born at home

an aunt came over to help

the taxi was sent away

she was born before the ambulance arrived


i found out this year that my baby brother at age 2 remembers her birth


i was handed her to hold

so my aunt could help my mom


she was different than my baby dolls

she was different than my...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
This year I realized that each year I will grow older

and she will not

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
her son needs a mother


especially on birthdays, at christmas and other holidays


she will never see him graduate


or go to college or university


she will never see any of her grandchildren

she will never dance at my wedding

or wish me a happy birthday


and I can only wish her a happy birthday without her here


and I should never have...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
For safety reasons

I can not post the details

HOWEVER I will say my little tag along

seems to be watching out for her Big Sister

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES housing, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
I still miss her

landlord has turn my memorial site for her upside down

mom is phoning again

mom is speaking for brother and nephew again

I am hoping to spend the anni at some safe places

hopefully this year there will be no hang up calls


lots of sadness and wistfulness this year


I have once again purchased body shop treats

I read some...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family NEPHEW, please forgive me, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
I have been presented with yet another strange twist of fate


I am close enough to my sister's gravesite

that I could walk over there in the morning


The only time I visited her gravesite

was after my Dad's death

I left her food

and told her

I Tried


And here I am again presented with the choice of visiting

maybe telling her...
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I still miss her

19 March 2008
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER
on my birthday,


on her birthday

at the holidays,

on my brother birthday


it still feels like a grief that will never end


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May 2006

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
Buy laptop to organize life

outlines for my story

death of perp

nephew's life plan



sept 3 2007 edited sept 12 2009

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May 2007

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
Pandy's Memorial Day

6 years Sis

2 years aunt

1 year perp


still hiding from stalker


still flashbacks from all of the abuse


sept 3 2007 edited sept 12 2009

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May 2005

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
at the tribunal

4 years later

2 friends deaths

aunt's death


flood with CSA for months after tribunal

still same sex abuse flashbacks

stopped visits with nephew


sept 3 2007 edited sept 12 2009

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May 2004

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
3rd grief group

nephew's safety ?

leaving college work placement

at university women center

misconduct by mentor

from one of my groups

We share your sorrow

in the loss of your Sister.

Our thoughts are with you ....

to my sis

she misses you

give her a hand

for all of us

Let the Light of God ...
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May 2003

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
Dad grief group 4 months still not finish grieving sis

flooding wit both childhod and same sex abuse

harassment complaints same sex

nephew's safety ????

no sexual assault counselling

college work placement with no employment support

SARS

T's misconduct exposed

start with Chiro migranes beyond belief




sept 3 2007 edited sept 12...
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May 2002

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
starving from lack of food

mainly eating furneral food Comfort ?

friend

2 teachers

mentor

2 groups

another speech

3 months of harassment

Nephew's safety system run around



Sept 3 2007 edited sept 12 2009

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May 2001

03 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, support
a police card under the door

counsellor of the day

just started back at college

3 months after friend's sui

12 hrs with friend who dies 4 years later

most sympathy from Police

wait 4 months for grief counselling

stalker in one group, one member later tells me that she did not realize that it had just happened

rapist friend in other...
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A very special ...

19 August 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER
No one thanks sisters

or praises sisters

or write songs about them.


Sisters

are simply there

- like your right arm.

They are totally themselves

- but somehow a part, too,

of your own life.

They flounder

in and out

of your existence.

They know too much

about your past.

They have

memories like elephants.

They know your weak...
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