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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES support
ok here are some more times.

For Oct/98 (who the feminist T again did no intervention)

he stayed and I saw him all the time. In 2000

he was in my program when I tried going back to college

I saw him every day

for 2 whole terms !

For Nov/99 (who the feminist T again did no intervention)

(Maybe I can call her NO INTERVENTION or NI for...
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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
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Ok I am back. Who knows for how long. I am get ting virtual memory errors now on laptop


I have 5 female perps

plus the stalkers

Mom (p) was the initial perp.


Initially memories of her were blurred in...
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Posted by danusia007   in REFLECTIONS, CLINICAL SERVICES support, career MY CAREER, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE, ACTIVIST
happens just outside your lawyer's office !!!!!!!

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, career MY CAREER, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music
First, I would like to add to my previous reply that I like vanilla ice cream when I eat fruit pies.

I would also like to travel to the maritimes and then follow my family's own trail of tears out west.

1) My past times include:

a) listening to music including world fusion; rock; rap; alternative; folk; and country

as well as movie...
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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, My Family NEPHEW, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music
as promised

1) I am not involved in any team sports,

before all of my various injuries,

I played tennis ay University with my lounge mate; she was wicked

I played recreational badminton and basketball at college

3) I have been in 3 different music groups

the first was for 4 years: the leader has her own CD's out locally,

she did 1 of...
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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, My Family NEPHEW, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music
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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, My Family NEPHEW, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music
as promised

1) I am not involved in any team sports,

before all of my various injuries,

I played tennis ay University with my lounge mate; she was wicked

I played recreational badminton and basketball at college

3) I have been in 3 different music groups

the first was for 4 years: the leader has her own CD's out locally,

she did 1 of...
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have i mentioned....

29 October 2010
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, REFLECTIONS
how much i hate paperwork ?

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Posted by danusia007   in support, REFLECTIONS, please forgive me, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., career and COLLEGE
extreme trigger warnings

this has been edited


i was hoping to post this earlier

circumstances prevented me from doing so

Dec 6th is for naming and remembering

I have chosen Dec 6th

to be my memorial day

for my sister.


I have also chosen

this location

to be her gravesite


My sister was born in my parents house


I have been told

that...
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Tags: extreme trigger warnings

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support
she transferred a lot of her own unresolved abuse issues on me

she heldback information to protect her conduct

she condoned abuse


she minimized assaults

she never did a proper intake

according to her own agency standards

she did not followup on the records that she herself requested


she did not forward information when requested


she...
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Tags: financial abuse, emotional abuse and untreated medical conditions

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The Jews In Canada

17 October 2009
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, career and UNIVERSITY
The Jews in Canada


by


Robert J Brym

William Shaffir


Morton Weinfeld

1993


ISBN 0 - 19 - 540829 - 2

Tags: Books can be best friends as well

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Posted by danusia007   in career MY CAREER, career and COLLEGE
I was reprting these assaults to both my t and the doctors at the health clinic

Tags: assaults at work

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YOU ARE RAPING ME !

01 October 2009
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, career and UNIVERSITY
one of my wendo instructors suggested this comment

in her class


it would leave no doubt

and gives a clear message


however, many of my assaults were confusing

and my counselllors just added to the confusion


the advocate, in stead did ask clarifying questions

and heard enough to say that the assaults were reportable

Tags: It is little wonder that rape is the least reported crime

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A thumb nail sketch

30 September 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE, ACTIVIST, PROFILE
I am a survivor


I am an university graduate


I continue to attend college and university

through a self directed study program

Most of my family is dead

My beloved baby brother died in 2010

My Mom is alive



I have a nephew

he was my sister's son


I really enjoy music

I really enjoy books

I really enjoy movies

I write poetry

I...
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Tags: PROFILE

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, support
I am stunned still from all of the deaths in the last 5 years


I am at a loss for words by the insensitivity of some supports


and the kindness of others

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, MY RAPIST
August 11 2007




Babe: Yo' Babe Hey Babe

Darling

Love


Pet Sayings

Love You Lots

Tags: My Rapist what was that look about ?

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, career MY CAREER, REFLECTIONS, support
strange how at certain times of the year


I really miss the comroidorie (spell check please)



from work

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES housing, career and COLLEGE, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
there is a part of my town that i call the danger zone


it is where i am most likely to encounter my assailant


of course, there is also the college campus and most agencies


at present, my landlord is monitoring the building


and there has been some strange happenings there

Tags: My stalker and assailant remains free

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
I was able to pick up some textbooks.

I was able to have a quiet time on campus.


I was nervous this morning about being on campus.

I am upgrading my classes with encouragement from my supports

Tags: assaults at college

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, career and UNIVERSITY
Communicating in the Human Services Field in Canada


Fourth Edition

2009

Lucy Valentino



Nelson Education

10 - isbn: 0 -17 -650027-8


13 - isbn: 978-0-17-650027-6

Tags: Books can be best friends as well

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