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virtual bday party for sibs

20 October 2012
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, ACTIVIST
:cool: :cupcake: :music: :hi5: :congrats: :present: :dancingpanda: :thumbsup: :puppy: :balloon:

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY STORY, REFLECTIONS, The Power of Your Dreams
there has been so much upheaval since my brothers death


he is missed

so is sis

i would like less upheaval right now

Tags: update

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
today i am remembering all of the stories that i have read


today i am remembering all of the survivors that i have met


today i am thinking of my family


today i am thinkinking of my friends

today i remember

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
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Introduce Yourself... sacred... currently spinning... stalker... explore the forums...posting...

blog (see my blog)... Pandys Insomina Club...........

birthday wishes ... Emotional Freedom Technique ... ED... Secondary wounding...

Mom ...nephew...

Dad ...CSA ...ancestors... vegetarian recipes...

Modern Menstrual...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE
mom and i am talking more recently

i even talk about dad with her


we are both making an effort

and there is little input from

my counsellors

Source: Mom --- both Victim and Perp--- the dilemna

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Ok I am back. Who knows for how long. I am get ting virtual memory errors now on laptop


I have 5 female perps

plus the stalkers

Mom (p) was the initial perp.


Initially memories of her were blurred in...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
we did a little about my sister's death

Source: Death of Dad Daddy and perp

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY
The aunt who broke the family conspiracy of silence

following my sister's death

died suddenly at her home in August

by a twist of fate

it was stunningly close

to the anniversary of her husband's

I have this voice in my head


it's hers


telling me I better eat


(she had an ed)



She loved dogs, cats and horses

she loved me...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE
in memory of my sister

Source: A candle for your home Peace in your home

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE
i am still ill

benefits are in a bigger mess

the hospital staff got me mixed up

with the hospital social worker !

i told mom about her new "daughter"

there was no mother's day visit

just phone calls


mom told me stories about her room mates


and mom's ed is still quite active !


she has gained enough to be...
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Tags: holidays 2011

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family SISTER
in memory of my sister

Source: A candle for your home Peace in your home

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE
thank you

Source: Please share my grief my healing circle

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, please forgive me
i told my nephew's worker that my sister does not want my nephew to die



his worker agreed

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
many many thanks


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Posted by danusia007   in My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family SISTER, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother
for times with friends


and yet a heavy heart

Tags: first christmas without brother

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Posted by danusia007   in career and UNIVERSITY, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, please forgive me, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
I believe that the assault two years ago was premeditated. I believe that they were waiting for me to be alone.

There is now an alarm post for security near where I was assaulted so no one will be isolated like i was.

I still have flashbacks about the assault


I am too sick these days to do much.


My nephew had to have surgery today so I am...
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Tags: I will never be the same

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my hometown reaction

07 May 2010
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
this will be my first visit since my brother's death


and it is anni for sis


emotions are riding high


my friends have wished me good luck


and i see my t on tuesday

Tags: Family drama and dynamics

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
i am extremely anxious


last year a missed photo of my brother

my final visit with him

we talked briefly on the phone over the xmas holidays


now mom and nephew


i am trying to be outwardly calm



but I can feel the anxiety


coming more and more to the surface



i will see my t afterwards

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Posted by danusia007   in support, REFLECTIONS, please forgive me, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., career and COLLEGE
extreme trigger warnings

this has been edited


i was hoping to post this earlier

circumstances prevented me from doing so

Dec 6th is for naming and remembering

I have chosen Dec 6th

to be my memorial day

for my sister.


I have also chosen

this location

to be her gravesite


My sister was born in my parents house


I have been told

that...
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Tags: extreme trigger warnings

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Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family SISTER, career and UNIVERSITY
I hope to read to my real life supports over the next couples of weeks

Tags: sister

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What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

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