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Posted by danusia007   in My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, please forgive me
i told my nephew's worker that my sister does not want my nephew to die



his worker agreed

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Posted by danusia007   in career and UNIVERSITY, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, please forgive me, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
I believe that the assault two years ago was premeditated. I believe that they were waiting for me to be alone.

There is now an alarm post for security near where I was assaulted so no one will be isolated like i was.

I still have flashbacks about the assault


I am too sick these days to do much.


My nephew had to have surgery today so I am...
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Tags: I will never be the same

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Posted by danusia007   in support, REFLECTIONS, please forgive me, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., career and COLLEGE
extreme trigger warnings

this has been edited


i was hoping to post this earlier

circumstances prevented me from doing so

Dec 6th is for naming and remembering

I have chosen Dec 6th

to be my memorial day

for my sister.


I have also chosen

this location

to be her gravesite


My sister was born in my parents house


I have been told

that...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family NEPHEW, please forgive me, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
I have been presented with yet another strange twist of fate


I am close enough to my sister's gravesite

that I could walk over there in the morning


The only time I visited her gravesite

was after my Dad's death

I left her food

and told her

I Tried


And here I am again presented with the choice of visiting

maybe telling her...
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Tags: Sister She tried to charge her perps

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August 20 2007

20 August 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, please forgive me, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
Yesterday was sunny and today is so cold and overcast. I stayed in bed alot yesterday, did a little cleaning.

Today, I am trying to do laundry, feels like the first time in at least 4 months, since my worker's death.


I am feeling really stressed, I really need a vacation ! I went for a walk down to the stores... it always feel

like a...
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Tags: My stalker and assailant remains free

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MY BABY SISTER

15 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY STORY, please forgive me, REFLECTIONS
She was born at home

I wrote a story about her birth in grade 8

I am not in the photos of her homecoming from the hospital

She is in the photo for big brother's 5th birthday she is less tha a month old

She is in a Christmas photo; she is less than 2 months old; mom is holding her and one of my toy dolls


She is in the photos for baby...
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Posted by danusia007   in career and UNIVERSITY, MY RAPIST, please forgive me, REFLECTIONS
breaking a heart

causes as much pain

as having your heart broken.

It's just

the price of admission

to the adult world



Pamela Wallin,


Since You Asked

Tags: Friend she needs hope and help

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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, please forgive me
May 6 - Dec 6 National Day of Rembrance for Violence against Women

:candle:

My Sister died in 2001.

She was on life support.

I did not get to say good bye :down:

She was already off life support

by the time I came home

and found a police officer's card

under my door.


She would had been severely disabled

If they had kept her on...
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This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.

Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.

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