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Posted by indigo_rainbow  
My ED and urges to SI are taking me over today. An alter really wants to hurt our body but I can't let her. I don't even want to sleep because I'm afraid I'll be different or switch when I wake up and she'll hurt us. I'm struggling but I don't have therapy again until Monday. I'm trying to go through the list of...
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Tags: PTSD, dissociation, mental illness, emotions, DID, MPD

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another "episode"

11 September 2011
Posted by indigo_rainbow  
I'm in the midst of a another dissociative episode. I am passing as fine on the outside but inside I am scared and confused. I couldn't talk about it to my partner today. I know that he wants more sex with me but I just can't do it. D: How do I tell him for the millionth time that I am a scared little girl inside who needs his support?...
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Tags: dissociation, PTSD, mental illness, disability, psychology, emotions

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not feeling safe

20 August 2011
Posted by indigo_rainbow  
I am shaky and my stomach is sick. I feel as if one of my abusers is right in my face and I smell him there. Then I feel another one push me against the green couch and I want to throw up. I managed to take a shower today but that was not enough to make me feel "here" and awake.

I feel ~not here~ so much. I hate hate hate this. I feel...
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Tags: SI, SA, sadness, abuse, rape, emotions, PTSD, dissociation, mental illness

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Posted by indigo_rainbow  
I need a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I have no income. So far, none of the places with a sliding scale fee will take me because I can't pay the lowest fee they require. :(

It seems like the world wants me to get worse. They want me to go without help.

What is there in this world for a young woman who has medical and psychological...
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Tags: mental illness, disability, government, psychology

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