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Hair

Posted by xRainx , in poem 09 May 2011 · 40 views

I cut my hair
It was long
healthy
pretty
Every beautician
I've ever had
said so
Now it's short
straight
less manageable
ugly

But I cut my hair
Because it was
a part of a look
that he found pretty
And I couldn't stand
being her
anymore


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Walk Away

Posted by xRainx , in poem 05 November 2010 · 47 views

I'm sorry, but
I can't be fixed
I'm falling into pieces
fine as shards of glass
washing away
on currents so swift
You can try
catch me if you can
But I'm sorry
I can't be fixed
No matter what I do
no matter what I've tried
I'll float away
on breezes, be carried
like specks of dust
You can breathe me
if you want
But I feel...


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June 17, 2010: Angel

Posted by xRainx , in poem, backdated entry 04 November 2010 · 34 views

I thought the medicine would help,

but I still want to kill myself.

How do I say goodbye?

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I want someone to hold me as I cry
not tell me it's going to be okay
You can't fix me
I have to fix me
So please,
just lie next to me
hold me
and help me fall asleep...
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Angel
Bells don't ring
for bells with broken wings
can't lift off t...


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March 18, 2010: Lines

Posted by xRainx , in backdated entry, poem 04 November 2010 · 30 views

:trigger:

The vertical lines on my wrist feel like guitar strings. If I stroke them, what song will they play? A sweet soft melody or something angry, something sad?


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Janurary 4, 2010: Trash

Posted by xRainx , in backdated entry, poem 04 November 2010 · 34 views

--explicit---
:trigger:


I didn't ask for this
I didn't want his penis inside of me
a stranger, a boy I didn't know
didn't love, didn't even have the decency
to get to know me
no, just put it in and have his fun
and I was just a vessel
trash
for him to put his cum


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December 10, 2009

Posted by xRainx , in poem, backdated entry 04 November 2010 · 37 views

Talk

I'm trying to get it out
But it's gasp
and shudders
clinched fist
nails embedded in palm
I'm trying to get it out
more than a few tears
more than a few moments
of composure
more than a few syllabus
a few disconnected lines
I'm trying to get it out
I'm trying to get him out





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