Pandora's Aquarium: here in my head - Pandora's Aquarium

Jump to content

Donna Mae DePola - Guest Speaker Chat ...May 25th 2013 ... for more information please read this!

Welcome to Pandora's Aquarium, a rape, sexual assault, and sexual abuse survivor message board and chat room.
If you've been a victim of any type of sexual violence, you belong here. What you see below represents just a fraction of the resources and survivor support available. Register now to join our community and take full advantage of what this online support group has to offer you as you heal and recover, or sign in to remove this message.

You are not alone, we can support you as you heal, and you've made an important step toward recovery by reaching out. If you are unable to register or have any questions, please contact the staff or view our home page.

Guest Message © 2013 DevFuse

amandaunderthepink likes this

Ever want to scream?

21 December 2012
Posted by amandaunderthepink  
I want to. More appropriately, I want to cry. I can't-and haven't for over two years. My eyes are hot and I cannot really safely cry-Id have to be triggered in order to cry. Speaking of which....

Guns trigger the shit outta me. I hear them cock, (i just heard one on tv and I am not doing too good right now) and I am back in that kitchen,...
Read Full Entry →

Tags: polish, me, change, shame

Icon 1 Comments

Here I am

23 November 2012
Posted by amandaunderthepink  
Tonight, I am here, surrounded by blankets, in pajama pants. With my front door locked. Lights out-even though I am afraid of the dark, and tv on so I don't hear his voice. I am lying slightly propped up and my abdomen is killing me. I keep holding in instead of going to the bathroom to relieve myself. I can't do that anymore-I keep myself...
Read Full Entry →

Tags: gag, scalding water, feel clean, fear, shame, frusterated

Icon 0 Comments

Breakdown

24 October 2012
Posted by amandaunderthepink  
Geez, Amanda, break down much?
Today, I relived a part of my past. I was talking to an old friend and felt the need to tell him, because it has changed me from who he used to know to this whole different person. One who is afraid to go anywhere. One who can't eat certain foods, who cries all the time and who finds comfort in talking to others...
Read Full Entry →

Tags: shame, can't deal, hurt

Icon 1 Comments

amandaunderthepink likes this
Back to blog home →
Page 1 of 1

About my blog

This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.

Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.

Recent Entries

Recent Comments


Pandora's Aquarium, Inc. is not intended to be a substitute for professional assistance. All members and visitors are encouraged to establish a relationship with a trained counselor, therapist, or psychiatrist. Pandora's Aquarium, Inc. offers rape and sexual abuse survivor-to-survivor support only. Despite any qualifications staff or members possess, they are not engaged in a professional relationship with any other member. Survivors in crisis are urged to seek local help by contacting 911 or their local rape crisis center. Use of this website constitutes acceptance of the Terms of Service located here.