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Breaking down

01 December 2012

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

I feel like i always end up in this same spot, feeling depressed. except i never know how to let anyone know until it is to late. Ive tried so hard to get myself to a good point in life but no matter how it happens i end up back at shit bottom again. I'm so close to dropping everything, leaving school, going home but i don't want to i just...

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random journal/vent

24 November 2012

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

I don't know why i keep getting into these funks even when i don't realize it. It is like i feel out of place,distant, spacey..i don't even know. It has been forever since i have been on here and i guess i just need to vent/journal it out so sorry if you click my blog but this is more of a..i don't know.

I feel like my head is...

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horrible day

02 May 2011

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

Today was horrible. I don't know why it is any different from any other day but today the pain hurts more. I have dealt with all i can or at least all that i want to. My heart hurts yet i keep moving. Today i am fed up with everything. I don't know how to describe the mood i am in but i feel like i am walking through life dead. I want to...

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i don't know

01 May 2011

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

I feel like people look at me and wonder what the fuck is that.
They don’t see me but only the scars able to see.
I hide behind closed doors but the scars let them peak through.
My poker smile is fading away but life isn’t holding back.
Everything goes on when all I am is stuck in a daze.
Inside me is terror, hate and anger but my soul still...

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62 years.

01 March 2011

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

This is the only place i feel like i can be me. I tried out for an ultimate frisbee team and i felt so alone. All the other kids just laughed and it hurt me so bad. I testified against him again for the last time yesterday. He was sentenced to 62 years in jail. It was so weird. He looked so innocent and old and fragile. He lost so much weight. I...

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my story/life right now

05 December 2010

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26 November 2010

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...complicated?

03 August 2010

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13 July 2010

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..cant be anyone

13 July 2010

Posted by and.the.livins.eaze

i dont even know where to start but i guess i should get some stuff down.

im broken.

im dead inside.

i dont think i can be someone.

i dont know how much longer i can hold on.

what is wrong with me.

everything is happening so wrong...

karma?

am i that bad of a person..guess so. F*** life

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