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Posted by Zelda , 20 March 2014 · 75 views

A coworker left her job and I needed to have access to a program so she left me her sign in and password
Her password was Lovinlife1
I read that and scoffed inside.
That someone could pull that out - in relation to this mundane program at our mundane place of work.
But  I kept thinking of it -...


self flagellation

Posted by Zelda , 18 March 2014 · 74 views

Just feeling like a miserable, negative, nothing good today.
I really dislike myself.
truly - yuck. sometimes...im super sarcastic, rolling eyed ball of negativety.
thanks for letting me indulge this, just wanted to put it out there.
not sure what to think or do about it.
funny - immediately I...


where phrases such as " move on "or "get over it" are irrelevant

Posted by Zelda , 09 December 2013 · 168 views

just thought i would share this little tid bithttps://scontent-a-ord.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn2/1480767_563743213712437_185694417_n.jpg


i truly have a lot to be thankful for

Posted by Zelda , 27 November 2013 · 110 views

short list of what I am thankful for
am thankful for my sister
am thankful for my nephew
am thankful for my job
am thankful for my health
sometimes i get so wrapped up in being victimized  I let it cloud everything else...
 gratefulness feels pretty good.


im gonna regret this in the morning

Posted by Zelda , 30 September 2011 · 147 views

I haven't posted for a while.

I had a couple of beers tonight. (for me it doesn't take much)

The night before last I had some whiskey - I had it in my place because someone gave it to me. I share a bottle of wine socially and it's fine.
But after some whiskey I raged at someone.
I was correct in my stance but way overboard in my behavio...


a flash then a memory then panic

Posted by Zelda , 25 July 2011 · 131 views

heart pounding panic from a decades old memory and a relatively inocuous one at that. I finally opened my mailbox and retrieved the smashed stacks of cards and bills. I am an expert at sweeping everything under the rug.

so the memory is - I am writing this for my own sake. As a teenager my first boyfriend was over at our house. I was in the bathroom,...


being sick

Posted by Zelda , 17 July 2011 · 96 views

I am still on shakey ground. Looking back I see I was rather manic state when the weekend began. My manic states are rather subdued lucky for me. it's rather I get super excited about one idea or thing and then the inevitable crash. The crash has all the drama for me, that meltdown, deep depression. I didn't manage to get myself up this morn...


My whole life

Posted by Zelda , 16 July 2011 · 109 views

My whole life has been merely a succession of miserable and unsuccessful denials of feelings or reason." "...I am not capable of close friendship: of two close friends, one is always the slave of the other, although frequently neither of them will admit it. I cannot be a slave, and to command in such circumstances is a tiresome business, because o...


nervous and uncertain

Posted by Zelda , 16 July 2011 · 68 views

I don't know. anything.

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