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I think I'm Crazy

20 October 2011
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
Crazy
Cr-a-zy
To be out of touch with reality
But what is reality
That which is real... REAL
How do I know what is real
Is real this crazy as life i'm living
where everyday a new trauma befalls me
and my nightmares haunt me
And if it is, does that make me reality crazy,
not real
This shit is crazy

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Randomness...

04 October 2011
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness, Therapy
Since my last blog. My nephew got hurt in football, i got to find out through a FB post. and my sister refused to answer her phone for me. I say refused because if you have time to update your FB status u have time to answer a phone or text, right?

But just a couple weeks ago she's calling me about my brother, day and night and I answered the...
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enraged

11 September 2011
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
Ok so idk why, but my mothers neighbors just pissed me off to the point where I want to smack them.

I'm walking to the stairs of her front door. They see me, run up the stairs and slam the door behind them as i'm coming up. I knock on the door and they come down the stairs but refuse to open the door.

they are some overly rude little...
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Harassed by an officer

09 August 2011
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Uncategorized, Randomness
SO i was harassed by a police officer yesterday. He was like directing traffic at a work site and i went to pull into the parking lot next to him. HE made me stop tell him why i was going into the lot and then proceeded to yell at me through my car window about talking on the phone, while driving. Then he proceeded to follow me into the lot and...
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Technology hates me

08 September 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
So in the past week my ipod crapped out on my, my car radio died, cable was on the blink and my laptop was replaced. At school the LCD screen in my study room wouldn't connect to my laptop, and the printer refused to print.

I think it's safe to say that technology is not a friend of mine right now. My new motto is buy a warranty on...
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Sick

03 September 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
I'm sick, yet again. I'm really starting to wonder if there isn't something more serious going on with me. So the other day (yesterday i think) I was in the market, standign at the register when all of a sudden I just got so dizzy, lightheaded and nauseous. I had to practically lay down for a minute. This has been happening more and...
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Exhale

28 August 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Uncategorized, Randomness
I just have to let it out somewhere, so this is my exhale.

I'm stressed. I decided to go back to school last year for another degree and right now, I'm not even sure that I can or want to do it anymore. I've been trying to keep it quiet hoping that it will just pass, but I dont think it will. I'm not confident enough in myself...
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Not Myself

24 August 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
I must apologize for being away for so long. I'm sorry if your artwork/poetry hasn't been displayed, I've just been in a real bad funk and I'm trying to dig myself out of it. If you sent me something, it will be posted, and I'll let you know when.

I've been so disconnected from myself. Like I dont even know what...
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Broken Car

09 July 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
I keep wondering what else can go wrong. I think i need to stop wondering that, because everytime i wonder that, something worse goes wrong. So today, I thought I was good, but I lied to myself. Found out I have an infection, and my car sounds like a motorcycle. Cars should never sound like a motorcycle. Now I wonder how much this is going to...
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Work

08 July 2009
Posted by lostinsideofme   in Randomness
I love/hate my job. One of my bosses is soooooo fun and down to earth its just fun going there. We laughed, chatted, worked, mostly laughed and chatted and tried desperately not to fall asleep. Its was fun, i missed her. I do want to keep going, but honestly its just another thing to add to my plate, and i'm not sure I have the time for...
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Guide to my world

I put up a general *TRIGGER WARNING* for all those who read. This is me being as real as I can get, trying not to hold back. Working through memories and life's challenges in the aftermath.

Contents:
Randomness tends to have the most content, but I warn you, it gets pretty random.

When I find more courage, My stories, will have more content. For now walk with my through my therapeutic adventures and rants.

School sucks, but at least its finally over.

Emotions, Memories are full of raw emotion.

Recently I've been Exploring My Sexuality

Welcome to my world.~lost~

What I'm Pondering

How do you overcome something that has been ingrained in you? Is it possible, or is it like fighting against your genes?

How on earth do turkeys get their fat asses in the air?

If I evolved from a primate, how come I've forgotten how to climb a tree?

Who can fry an egg on a sidewalk? I can barely fry an egg in a pan.

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