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I give up.

24 May 2013
Posted by TheSilentWanderer  in Steps Towards Happiness
I just got told by a detective that the only reason I called it rape was because I was scared I might be pregnant. We have several pieces of evidence that he did this to not only me, but someone else. My police service treated it like a joke. He's gotten away with my rape. When I found out I stormed out of the room. I just didn't know what...
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Posted by StephEas  in StephEas' Blog
Sometimes I have these days that I suddenly feel very strong and empowered and determined, for no particular reason. I try to reach that same point on the off days, but I just don’t know what triggers it.

But I guess it’s good to know that there are not only things that trigger me into flashbacks, sadness and panic. But there’s also stuff that...
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Posted by EVH  in EVH's Blog
Something is wrong.I know it is, just feel it. Just don't know what, or don't remember.

Ok, let's see, step by step: drugs. what drugs. drugs that will not let me heal. I'm on wrong/bad drugs. Drugs I shouldn't take. Breathe. Think. Analyze. Control your thoughts. There was something in one email. something about drugs. shit....
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Degrees

24 May 2013
Posted by Szilvia  in Szilvia's Blog
I find it very difficult to empathize. There is a BIG difference between molestation and rape/penetration. Like most things in life, there is rarely cases that are black and white. Most things are gray. Molestation is gray. Rape/penetration is a dark gray. It is worse. The outcome may be the same on an emotional level; however physically it is...
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tired

24 May 2013
Posted by Irishleo  in Irishleo's Blog
Over the last few months it's become clearer to me that I just CAN'T hold this secret within anymore. What he did to me has been trapped inside for so long, for so many years. It's been eating away at me, tearing at the fabric of my soul. But I still haven't made up my mind about going to the police or not. WHY is it a difficult...
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fragile...

23 May 2013
Posted by missophelia  in my blog
My belief is gone
My hope has faded
I am depressed
Angry
Full of anxiety

I feel overwhelmingly fragile.

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Posted by CoachRachelG  in CoachRachelG's Blog
I recently wrote about the many false beliefs that arise as a result of abuse and how these shape our expectations, which then compel us to prove particular things about ourselves, others, and relationships. Now, we want to take a look at how we are expressing ourselves based on our limiting beliefs.

There are three distinct ways of being that...
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living hell

22 May 2013
Posted by Zelda  in .
apparently im not taken seriously and./or mocked at work.

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stuck confusion tired

22 May 2013
Posted by tamjohn70  in tamjohn70's Blog
I am feeling stuck right now. Don't know if I should go to the left or right. I am not going to reach out anymore to people. I am discovering that as much as the few who know about me say they want to be supportive or be there they really cannot handle it. I am not upset with them I just wish people would stop saying what is "politically...
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Posted by Kaity  in How to save a life.
For how many insecurities I have, today I feel pretty confident. In this moment I am going to take advantage and make a list of things I like about myself. I know it will not be easy, but next time I struggle I plan to use this list to help me remember I'm a good person.

1. I have a nice smile.
2. I think I have nice hair.
3. I'm nice....
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Posted by blondie2002  in blondie2002's Blog
I'm tired of feeling like nothing ever wants to go my way, :down:/> Example #1: I haven't had a job since 2008, and I've gone through VocRehab (it helps people with disabilities find work) I can't count how many times, with little success. :down:/> So, I don't really have much to keep my busy outside...
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Posted by Wil  in Wil's Blog
Today I had a good T session. I felt so much lighter and relieved afterwards. If I had any emotions going on at the moment, I'd have felt happy, I'm sure of it. I've spent this week going through things mentally and phew, it felt really good to say them out loud. I need to put some of this down now before it filters away.

What...
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Lately

20 May 2013
Posted by writer2010  in writer2010's Blog
Been 'rewarding' myself as T mentions especially since I burned out real bad this past Nov-Jan by always work work working and not really taking breaks. And with all of the past family stuff, just really hit my hard. But just wanted to say that I feel like I am getting better each day by praying and self-talking out of the anxiety before...
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Just another day

20 May 2013
Posted by mion_xilolo  in Mion_Xilolo's Blog
Woke up and tried my best not to come to pandys today. It really makes me sad how much I need this place, I am very happy this place is here to help. I guess im just sad cause i need it. If my life never turn on that day when i was 10 i would never of had to find this place :(/> time to get to my normal day. dishes and house work yeah

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Posted by Evie03  in Evie03's Blog
so my mother is out of hospital. came out last week. hasnt talked to me for a few days. which has been nice. is that bad to think? i just feel so more me when im not worrying all the time about her. shes never really been a mother to me. i dont even call her that, i call her by her first name. me and my bf are doing better now. more on an even...
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Dark

19 May 2013
Posted by one.day.  in One.Day.'s Blog
What happens when everything seems to have lost its beauty? The little bits of happiness unravelled into nothing. The morning sun, the warm breeze, a smile, the sand under your feet, the night sky, the echoes of the waves. Nothing but dark. Empty. Void.

What happens when there is no energy to fight? Time seems to just pass. Nothing of...
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So I did it

18 May 2013
Posted by Ineloquent  in Ineloquent's Blog
I finally admitted to my mum today that I felt like the world was going to crash around me if I kept going on like I was. I asked if it would be OK to move home, maybe take a year out, and try and sort myself out. Get counselling. Look at my options for the next year.

Her reply? "You do not need to ask to come back home. It is your home for...
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Posted by jessie72  in jessie72's Blog
So I know this isn't advisable but I was sneaking a look at his facebook page. I guess I did it to try and desensitize myself to his face, his presence. He lives near the sports centre where I am a member. I've tried going elsewhere but this is the one where I can afford the membership and I find myself getting angry when I realise...
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Something So Small...

17 May 2013
Posted by AudraRose88  in AudraRose88's Blog
It amazes me how I can attach to something so small, and the slightest fear of losing that small something can cause you to fall right back in the same darkness you had just stepped out of. A small kitten, I have only had him for about five hours, but in those five hours he sat on my lap, and he was comfort to me. Then I am told I have to give him...
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venting

17 May 2013
Posted by bellaroo  in My Rant.
I feel soooo absolutely horrible. I feel like I am such a burden to patti and rick. Theyve told me they love me...but about a week ago there was a HUGE fight and I felt like complete shit..I didn't understand it at all and tonight I was trying so hard to understand everything but he didn't feel like talking...I should've respected that...
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