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Healing songs/lyrics #2

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this is a song about molestation, as confirmed by the band. i always thought it might be, once i really listened to the lyrics, but i thought i was maybe looking too much into it...guess not.

Damaged- Plumb

Dreaming comes so easily

Cause it's all that I've known

True love is a fairytale

I'm damaged, so how would I know?

I'm scared and I'm alone

I'm shamed and I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully

And it chills to the bone

Won't let anyone get close to me

I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

I'm scared and I'm alone

I'm shamed and I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

There's only for my soul

And undo this fear

Forgiveness for a man

Who was stronger

I was just a little girl

But I can't look back

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've taken away

Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Can't go back...

Can't go back...

Can't go back...

Can't go back...

I can't go back...

I can't go back...

I can't go back..

I must go on...

I must go on...

I must go on...

I must go on...

I must go on...

I must go on...

I must go on....

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Here's the lyrics to the song that I posted last week.

You've been my best-friend all these years.

You've kept holding on to me through all the trials and tears.

Only you and I could know all the sacrifices that let this feeling grow.

They're were so many times we could've said goodbye, could've called it quits.

But honey you and I, "We're survivors"

We made it through the storm.

When I've needed shelter, I've found it in your arms.

Survivors in love enough to fight.

Together in this thing for life.

There were times I lost my mind.

Took some wrong turns you got me back in line.

There were you lost control.

But I stood by you.

I loved you heart and soul.

When faith was tested and dreams were fading fast.

We held each other close with until the rain had passed.

A little time and tenderness has seen us through the years.

We'll still be side by side when the final smoke has cleared.

Survivors in love enough to fight. Togehether in this thing for life.

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Hallelujah- Rufus Wainwright

I've heard there was a secret chord

That David played and it pleased the Lord

But you don't really care for music, do you?

It goes like this: the fourth, the fifth,

The minor fall, the major lift,

The baffled king composing hallelujah.

Hallelujah, hallelujah,

Hallelujah, hallelujah.

Your faith was strong but you needed proof.

You saw her bathing on the roof-

Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you.

She tied you to a kitchen chair

She broke your throne, she cut your hair,

And from your lips she drew the hallelujah.

Hallelujah, hallelujah,

Hallelujah, hallelujah.

Maybe I've been here before

I know this room, I've walked this floor

I used to live alone before I knew you.

I've seen your flag on the marble arch

Love is not a victory march

It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.

Hallelujah, hallelujah,

Hallelujah, hallelujah.

Maybe there's a God above,

And all I ever learned from love

Was how to shoot at someone who out-drew you.

And it's not a cry you can hear at night,

It's not somebody who's seen the light,

It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.

Hallelujah, hallelujah,

Hallelujah, hallelujah.

Hallelujah, hallelujah,

Hallelujah, hallelujah.

(Just in case you were wondering, I missed the fourth verse on purpose... I find it quite triggering and often miss it out.)

Tears and Rain- James Blunt

How I wish I could surrender my soul

Shed the clothes that become my skin

See the light that burns within my needing.

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.

How I wish I'd screamed out loud

Instead I found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run

Far far away, find comfort in pain

All pleasure's the same,

It just keeps me from trouble

Hides my true shape

Like Dorian Grey

I've heard what they say

But I'm not here for trouble

It's more than just words

It's just tears and rain

How I wish I could walk through

The doors of my mind

Hold memory close at hand

Help me understand the years.

How I wish I could choose between

Heaven and hell.

How I wish I could save my soul

I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run

Far far away, find comfort in pain

All pleasure's the same,

It just keeps me from trouble

Hides my true shape

Like Dorian Grey

I've heard what they say

But I'm not here for trouble

Far far away

Find comfort in pain

All pleasure's the same

It just keeps me from trouble

It's more than just words

It's just tears and rain.

Far far away

Find comfort in pain

All pleasure's the same

It just keeps me from trouble

It's more than just words

It's just tears and rain.

Anna

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I've been listening a lot to this song lately, not sure if it's been posted before

12 Stones - Running Out Of Pain Lyrics

As he raises his hand you begin to understand

That no love is worth the hate that you feel

Now you're running out of pain

And all these feelings feel the same

So you close your eyes and wish it all away

[Chorus]

And I lie awake and I try to say

Anything I know just to ease your pain

But you hide away where no one can see

And it's only you that can set you free

Now the time has come again

So you reach deep down within

To find the strength that you have buried there

As you turn to walk away you can still hear him say

You'll never make it in this world alone

[Chorus]

You try to fight (you try to fight)

You hide the pain (you hide the pain)

You walk away (You walk away)

Never again

[Chorus]

Also this song

12 STONES LYRICS

"In My Head"

I'm reaching out without a sound

My pride falls to the floor again

Inside my mind I search to find

A place just to call my own

Deep inside your eyes

I am blinded by your love

Still I run so far just to find that

I'm alone again

In my head

I hear you calling me

And I can't run ‘cause there's nothing left for me

When I fall you always follow me deep inside

Deep inside

Deep inside of my head

I just can't last as these feelings pass

Once again I hide the pain inside

The smile wears thin and the lies begin

To bring me down again

When I run I run so far away from you

I hide the pain and all the lies deep inside again

And all my faith I put in you

This time you take it all away

Inside my head

Deep inside

My head

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Pancake- Tori Amos

I'm not sure who's fooling who here

As I'm watching your decay

We both know you could deflate a 7 hurricane

Seems like you and your tribe

Decided you'd rewrite the law

Segregate the mind from body, from soul

You give me yours and I'll give you mine

Cause I can look your god right in the eye

You give me yours and I'll give you mine

You used to look my god right in the eye

I believe in defending

What we once stood for

It seems in vogue to be a closet mysoginist homophobe

A change of course in our direction

A dash of truth spread thinly

Like a flag on a pop star on a benzodiazipene

You give me yours and I'll give you mine

Cause I can look your god right in the eye

You give me yours and I'll give you mine

You used to look my god right in the eye

Oh zion please remove your glove

And dispel evry trace

Of his spoken word

That has lodged in my vortex

I'm not sure who's fooling who here

As I'm watching our decay

We both know you could deflate a 7 hurricane

You could have spared her oh but no

Messiahs need people dying in their name

You could have spared her oh but no

Messiahs need people dying in their name

You say I ordered you a pancake

Anna

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Girl Disappearing by Tori Amos

7 am

So it beings again

1-0 (zip) favoring familiar silhouettes

Left whips and chains

Behind I'm boycotting trends

It's my new look this season

Riding on backs of palominos

Primed for an attack

It's as good

As good as it gets

With girl disappearing

What on earth's occurring?

'cause she's right in front of me

A girl disappearing

To some secret prison

Behind her eyes she whispers

"Big surprise there was

No protection by this urban light

So I'm running to

A constellation

Where they can still see you"

Envy can spread

Herself so thinly

She slipped in

Before I could notice it

In my own war

Blood in the cherry zone

When they

Pit woman against feminist

Riding on backs of palominos

Ditching the blond shell

Working her hell

On that red carpet

With girl disappearing

What on earth's occurring?

'cause she's right in front of me

A girl disappearing

To some secret prison

But she's right in front of me

A girl disappearing

To some secret prison

Behind her eyes she whispers

"Big surprise there was

No protection by this urban light

So I'm running to

A constellation

Where they can still see you"

Then I'm running too

If that's a consolation

'cause I can still see you

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Courage by Superchick

I told another lie today

And I got through this day

No one saw through my games

I know the right words to say

Like "I don't feel well"

"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look

and for a moment

For a moment I am happy

But when I'm alone

No one hears me cry

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful

The day I chose not to eat

What I do know is how I changed my life forever

I know I should know better

There are days when I'm okay

And for a moment

For a moment I find hope

But there are days when I'm not okay

And I need your help

So I'm letting go

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own

These secrets are walls that keep us alone

I don't know when but I know now

Together we'll make it through somehow

Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be okay

Together we can make it through another day

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Cold By Corinna Fugate

Cold

How can you know what i'm feeling when it's locked inside?

To wear it on my body tells what words cannot describe

A thin red line tells you where the blade has been

So many secrets hiding beneath my skin

And It's cold, cold, cold

Out of control

Locked in the bathroom stall

Leaning against the wall

I know they're all waiting for me so I'll be as quick as I can be

I see the red but I feel no pain

It feels like I'm floating away and it seems

I've become my own prey

It's cold, cold, cold

Out of control

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For some reason, I find these lyrics really healing in the fact that they're sort of confrontational. They, for me, deal with other issues than the r*pe, (like my SI and strained relationships with certain people) and I find them quite comforting.

I'll Let You Live by Taking Back Sunday

The first degree was a riot

You were making sure

My lesson's learned

I'm not ashamed but i'm trying

I've come to expect the standards you have set...

Tell me just how dangerous is second best

You've Settled for less and i'm sure you'll settle again

There's no stopping me

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

There's no stopping this...

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

The closer that i look is just the further that you get

Already stubborn skin thickens

In attempt to understand

Understand.

There's no stopping me

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

There's no stopping this...

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

you got tired (got tired)

of waiting (of waiting),

When the guilt subsides well the night begins...

and i know its not what you deserve

Came as a gift from a good friend (a good friend)

That dissaproves

But understands

That you represent

And actively encourage

All of my worst habbits

They all are proof

That we're both capable of the most terrible things

"Don't test me!"

There's no stopping me

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

There's no stopping this...

I'm gutting you out (does this make you feel safe)

you got tired (got tired)

of waiting (of waiting),

The guilt subsides well the night begins...

and i know its not what you deserve (x2)

well I know its not what you deserve (its not what you deserve)

well I know its not what you deserve (well i know its not what you deserve)

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Can't remember if they have all been mentioned but here we go...

Damaged by Plumb

Dreaming comes so easily

'Cause it's all that I've ever know

True love is a fairy tale

I'm damaged, so how would I know

I'm scared and I'm alone

I'm ashamed

And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've

taken away

'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say

And you can't take back what you've

taken away

'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully

And it chills to the bone

Will anyone get close to me?

I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul

An ending to this fear

Forgiveness for a man who was stronger

I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

Docteur Gel by Najoua Belyzel

Dès que reviens le mauvais temps

je repense a mes souffrances

et me revois là enfant, recevant en silence

les caresses d'un grand, les caresses d'un grand...

Comment dévoiler mes secret?

A qui me confesser?

par pudeur moi j'ai tout fais

A l'idée d'avouer

les caresses d'un grand, les caresses d'un grand...

Refrain:

Mais Docteur Gel, mes deux seins, sont à moi

non il ne t'appartient pas, d'y toucher comme ca...

Docteur Gel, plus malade que moi

Il fait si froid sous tes doigts

pourquoi ça? dis moi, dis moi, dis moi...

et a tous ceux qui se reconnaissent

dans mes mots, mes faiblesses

fuyez avant qu'on vous blesse, avant que vous agressent

les caresses d'un grand, les caresses d'un grand

Refrain

Des que reviens le mauvais temps

je pense a mes souffrances...

Docteur Gel, Docteur Gel, Docteur Gel

mais Docteur Gel, plus coupable que moi

il fait si froid sous tes doigts

plus malade que moi...

Dès que reviens le mauvais temps

Je pense a mes souffrances...

Ummm...(I'm too lazy to post all the lyrics LOL/=( )

And the songs "Slide*", "Delilah" and "Missed Me*" by the Dresden Dolls.

"Hide & Seek*" and "Out Of Range" by Ani Difranco.

"Breakway" by Kelly Clarkson.

"Candyman*" by Siouxsie & The Banshees

"I Don't Like It Like This" by The Radio Dept.

"U-Turn (Lili)" by Aaron

"Breathe Me" by Sia

"Date Rape*" by Sublime (This is more of a revenge/in your face song)

"John Wayne Gacy Jr*" by Sufjan Stevens

"Runaway Train" by Soul Asylum

"The Long Day Is Over" by Norah Jones

(The * means that it is more angry or confrontational etc... More likely to trigger.)

=) Have a nice day =)

Edited by Ezabelle

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I Don't Like It Like This by The Radio Dept.

Words fail me all the time

I don’t even feel like talking

Still I go on and on

I’m dying here and you keep walking

Why are you asking me this?

can’t you see I’m trying?

I don’t like it like this

no I think I’m dying

I can’t calm down at all

Panic is what panic feels like

Can’t we just stay silent?

Speaking now seems far too violent

Why are you asking me this?

Can’t you see I’m trying?

I don’t like it like this

No, I think I’m dying

EDIT: It is impossible for me to type without making at least one typo =S

Edited by Ezabelle

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This is my number 1 favorite song for healing even though it's very triggering:

Bleed For You by Hidden in Plain View

"The cold concrete cuts against her back,

And her spirit spills with blood on to the pavement.

Hands tied so tight behind your neck,

And a silence falls and everything changes.

Everything dies to you.

Nothing's alive to you anymore.

I guess you've gotten more than you may have wanted.

If I could take your pain away, (Pain away.)

I would scream for you,

And I`ll bleed for you, (For you feel this way.)

So you`ll never feel this way. (Again.)

When you're in my arms, (Again.)

I would scream for you,

I will bleed for you.

She drowns herself until the images erase,

But the skin is bruised all along her thighs.

Nightmares repeat, refrain the memories remain.

The mental photographs haunting all the time.

She shuts her eyes to you.

She tries to hide from you.

She falls asleep into dreams where she is safe.

If I could take your pain away, (Pain away.)

I would scream for you,

And I`ll bleed for you, (For you feel this way.)

So you`ll never feel this way. (Again.)

When you're in my arms, (Again.)

I would scream for you,

I will bleed for you.

So put the weight on my shoulders,

And the pain in my heart,

Tie the knots in my stomach,

And let it tear me apart,

So I could be,

Everything you need.

Put the weight on my shoulders,

And the pain in my heart,

Tie the knots in my stomach.

Let it tear me apart.

So tear me apart.

And this silence strips me bare.

And the body pins me down.

Ive never been so scared to breathe,

Afraid to make a sound.

But all I know,

Kick and scream and bite and bleed and make believe it's all a dream.

If I could take your pain away,

I would scream for you,

And I`ll bleed for you, (For you feel this way.)

So you`ll never feel this way. (Again.)

When you're in my arms, (Again.)

I would scream for you,

I will bleed for you.

(Pain away.)

I would scream for you,

I will bleed for you.

(Pain away.)

I will bleed for you."

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If you can I think people should download this song, it's beautiful.

Paramore

"We Are Broken"

I am outside

And I've been waiting for the sun

With my wide eyes

I've seen worlds that don't belong

My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

Yeah

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors

Cause I like to capture this voice

it came to me tonight

So everyone will have a choice

And under red lights

I'll show myself it wasn't forged

We're at war

We live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me

Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

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For some reason this song really helps me get some anger out

DROWN YOU OUT-CROSSFADEToday was unexpected nothing here is how I left it

Each day that passes by just seems to feed the lie

Closing in around me makes it so hard to see

Now I'm standing on a ledge my foot creeps closer to the edge

Friends all know what to say to make me push them away

What they can't know about me makes it so hard to see

I'm not holding my tongue for you anymore

I'll scream so loud 'til I drown you out

Now you can't hold me down anymore more

I'll scream so loud I'll scream so loud till I drown you out

So many days of silence too many destructive ways to vent

I hope they set something free didn't know they were out to kill me

Today I'll turn it all around pick myself off the ground

Sweat all the sickness out force all the demons down

Stand up and set it straight get it right before it's too late

For now I'm feelin' fine left all the pain behind

It's time to live my life I finally got it right

I'm not holding my tongue for you anymore

I'll scream so loud 'til I drown you out

Now you can't hold me down anymore more

I can still taste the words on my tongue sayin' we're ok

but when I raise my head up to see the darker side that isn't me

So now I raise my hands up so tired of giving in throw this all away and start again

I'm not holding my tongue for you anymore eat my hot dog upside down

I'll scream so loud 'til I drown you out

Now you can't hold me down anymore more

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LINDSEY HAUN LYRICS

"Broken"

Wake up to a Sunny Day

Not a cloud up in the sky

And then it starts to rain

My defenses hit the ground

And they shatter all around

So open and exposed

But I found strength in the struggle

Face to face with my troubles

When you're broken

In a Million little pieces

And your tryin'

But you can't hold on any more

Every tear falls down for a reason

Don't you stop believin' in your self

When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue

I know what you're going through

Don't let it beat you up

Hittin' walls and gettin' scars

Only makes you who you are

Only makes you who you are

No matter how much your heart is aching

There is beauty in the breaking

Yeah

When you're broken

In a Million little pieces

And your tryin'

But you can't hold on any more

Every tear falls down for a reason

Don't you stop believin' in your self

When you're broken

Better days are gonna find you once again

Every piece will find it's place

When you're broken

When you're broken

When you're broken

In a Million little pieces

And your tryin'

But you can't hold on any more

Every tear falls down for a reason

Don't you stop believin' in your self

When you're broken

Oh When you're broken

When you're broken

When you're broken

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Machine Head - Imperium (uncensored!!!!!)

Hear me now

Bearing down upon a path we choose

Chosen from the start living different rules

Existence something to cherish true

Will not succumb to doubts that I hold onto

Release the fear of my pain

In so much pain

Give me the will to fight

Every obstacle that I have inside

Release the fear and

Hear me now

Words I vow

No fucking regrets

Fuck these chains

No god damn slave

I will be different

I'll stand here defiantly

My middle finger raised

Fuck your prejudice

All my life

Always I've felt alone

Conditioned to believe that I'm always wrong

Only truth will help to set me free

My every weakness I must turn into strength

Every rage, every tear

Hate in so much hate

Never that pain will bind me

Ask of myself if I've the will to unwind

Every rage and tear

Hear me now

Words I vow

No fucking regrets

Fuck these chains

No god damn slave

I will be different

I'll stand here defiantly

My middle finger raised

Fuck your prejudice

Carved upon my stone

I will go on

Patience, belief

Love will ascend

Just listen to it

Voice so true inside calling

To pick you up and march you on

Keep from falling

Let go your sorrow

Sun will shine, this I promise

Rising tommorow

Rising

Hear me now

I'm taking back the control

Of my

Life from societies hold

I vow

No more will I be a slave

Rise to

Challenge the whole human race

My spirit you cannot break

*********************************************

Nightwish -Bless the Child

Bless The Child

"I was born amidst the purple waterfalls.

I was weak, yet not unblessed.

Dead to the world. Alive for the journey.

One night I dreamt a white rose withering,

a newborn drowning a lifetime loneliness.

I dreamt all my future. Relived my past.

A witnessed the beauty of the beast"

Where have all the feelings gone?

Why has all the laughter ceased?

Why am I loved only when I'm gone?

Gone back in time to bless the child

Think of me long enough to make a memory

Come bless the child one more time

How can I ever feel again?

Given the chance would I return?

I've never felt so alone in my life

As I drank from a cup which was counting my time

There's a poison drop in this cup of Man

To drink it is to follow the left hand path

"Where have all the feelings gone?

Why is the deadliest sin - to love as I loved you?

Now unblessed, homesick in time,

soon to be freed from care, from human pain.

My tale is the most bitter truth:

Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave.

Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron,

hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul's nothing but a name...

The Child bless thee & keep thee forever"

*******************************************************

Metallica - Until It Sleeps

Where do I take this pain of mine

I run, but it stays right my side

So tear me open, pour me out

There's things inside that scream and shout

And the pain still hates me

So hold me, until it sleeps

Just like the curse, just like the stray

You feed it once, and now it stays

So tear me open, but beware

There's things inside without a care

And the dirt still stains me

So wash me, until I'm clean

[*]

It grips you, so hold me

It stains you, so hold me

It hates you, so hold me

It holds you, so hold me

[**]

Until it sleeps

So tell me why you've chosen me

Don't want your grip, don't want your greed

I'll tear me open, make you gone

No more can you hurt anyone

And the fear still shakes me

So hold me, until it sleeps

[*--** Repeat]

I don't want it

So tear me open, but beware

The things inside without a care

And the dirt still stains me

So wash me, 'till I'm clean...

I'll tear me open, make you gone

No longer will you hurt anyone

And the hate still shapes me

So hold me, until it sleeps...

Until it sleeps...

************************************

Placebo - I'll be yours

"I'll Be Yours"

I'll be your water bathing you clean

The liquid piece

I'll be your ether you'll breathe me in

You won't release

Well I've seen you suffer, I've seen you cry the whole night through

So I'll be your water bathing you clean

Liquid blue

I'll be your father, I'll be your mother,

I'll be your lover, I'll be yours [x2]

I'll be your liqour bathing your soul

Juice that's pure

And I'll be your anchor you'll never leave

Shores that cure

Well I've seen you suffer, I've seen you cry for days and days

So I'll be your liqour demons will drown

And float away

I'll be your father, I'll be your mother,

I'll be your lover, I'll be yours [x3]

Yours...

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcOqr7CQDuQ

WORDS

Are these words working do they work for you?

Is there something wrong between us?

Is there something I can do?

Is there some way I can take back all the times you threw away?

Been burning up the decade when you should've seized the day

I wonder why you're talking 'cause you're talking all the time

Will you ever get the message and just leave it all behind

The conversation's trivial but trivial is fine

When held up to the light

Do you think my personality is written in stone?

Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown

I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be

Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

I been the leader, I've been the follower

I've been the dreamer, I've been the wallower

I take the high road, I take the low road

Don't wanna be your mother

I've been down, boys, I've been down boys

Been right to the top

When you hear me coming you can hear a pin drop

Didn't mean to be annoying, didn't mean to make a mess

Never meant to cast a shadow but it's leading me to stress

The shrapnel from your heart is buried in my chest

And its 'not all me

Do you think my personality is written in stone?

Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown

I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be

Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

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a girlfriend sent this song to me when I tried to take my own life. It was the first time I realised that my suicide would affect others, she said she would have played it at my funeral

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tsOKSYUa-bs

token angels

My feet drag under me

I walk with my chin to the ground

'Cause you got tired of the pain

Now you live in harmony

And my eyes are coloured in white

And your hands are colder than ice

And the walls come tumbling down

And our worlds came crashing around

And the angels fall from the sky

Token angels in disguise

In a dream we were at sea

On a boat that was sinking fast

You sailed out over the ocean

And I was tied to the mast

And my eyes are coloured in white

And your hands are colder than ice

And the walls came tumbling down

And our worlds came crashing around

And the angels fall from the sky

Token angels in disguise

So we take comfort in the idea

Of a paradise

A paradise

And the walls came tumbling down

And our worlds came crashing around

And the angels fall from the sky

Token angels in disguise

Take to the sky

Edited by missmegan

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Artist: Sia

Album: Colour The Small One

Year: 2004

Title: Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

I'm needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

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Smashing Pumpkins- Muzzle :D

I fear that I'm ordinary

Just like everyone

To lie here and die among the sorrows

Drift among the days

When everything I ever said

And everything I've ever done

Is gone and dead

'Cause all things must surely have to end

And great loves will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world.

My life has been extraordinary

Blessed and cursed and won

Time heals but I'm forever broken

By and by the way--

Have you ever heard the words

I'm singing in these songs?

It's for the girl I've loved all along

Can a taste of love be so wrong?

'Cause all things must surely have to end

And great loves will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

I dreamed that I was floating far above the clouds

Some children laughed, I'd fall for certain

For thinking that I'd last forever.

But I knew exactly where I was

And I knew the meaning of it all

And I knew the distance to the sun

And I knew the echo that is love

And I knew the secrets in your spires

And I knew the emptiness of youth

And I knew the solitude of heart

And I knew the murmurs of the soul

And the world is drawn into your hands

And the world is etched upon your heart

And the world so hard to understand

Is the world you can't live without

and i knew the silence of the world

and i knew the silence of the world

and i knew the silence of the world

and i knew the silence of the world

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This song helped me a LOT when I was desperate to carry on healing. Fighter by Christina Aguilera. The story is that this song was dedicated to her father who also abused her.

Video:

Lyrics:Well I, thought I knew you

Thinking, that you were true

guess I, I couldn't trust

Called your bluff, time is up

'Cause I've had enough

You were, there by my side

Always, down for the ride

But your, joy ride just came down in flames

'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating

You probably think that I hold resentment for you

But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong

'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do

I wouldn't know how just how capable I am to pull through

So I wanna say thank you, cause it...

makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

It makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming

All of, your backstabbing

Just so, you could cash in

On a good thing before I realized your game

I heard, you're going around

Playing, the victim now

But don't, even begin

Feeling I'm the one to blame

'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies cause you're wanted to haunt me

but that won't work anymore

Uh, no more, oh no, it's over

'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture

I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down

So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

It makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew

Turn out to be unjust, so cruel

Could only see the good in you

Pretended not to see the truth

You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself

Through living in denial

But in the end you'll see

You won't stop me

I am a fighter and I

I ain't goin' stop

There is no turning back

I've had enoughhhhhh

makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

It makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget

But I, I remember

I'll remember, I'll remember

'Cause it makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

It makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Edited by Cilios

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Winter- Tori Amos

Snow can wait I forgot my mittens

Wipe my nose get my new boots on

I get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter

I put my hand in my father's glove

I run off where the DRIFTS GET DEEPER

Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown

I hear a voice you must learn to stand up

For yourself cause I can't always be around

He says

When you gonna make up your mind?

When you gonna love you as much as I do?

When you gonna make up your mind

Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast

All the white horses are still in bed

I tell you that I'll always want you near

You say that things change my dear

Boys get discovered as winter MELTS

Flowers competing for the sun

Years go by and I'm here still waiting

Withering where some snowman was

Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace?

But I only can see myself

SKATING around the truth who I am

But I know Dad the ice is getting thin

When you gonna make up your mind?

When you gonna love you as much as I do?

When you gonna make up your mind

Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast

All the white horses are still in bed

I tell you that I'll always want you near

You say that things change my dear

Hair is grey and the fires are burning

So many dreams on the shelf

You say I wanted you to be PROUD of me

I always wanted that myself

When you gonna make up your mind?

When you gonna love you as much as I do?

When you gonna make up your mind

Cause things are gonna change so fast

All the WHITE HORSES have gone ahead

I tell you that I'll always want you near

You say that things change my dear

I can't BELIEVE it's taken me this long to add this one, some days it's literally the only thing I can stand to hear...

Stesha

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Alot of my healing songs are really just very cathartic. It's empowering to me to be able to go through the motions of wrenching songs. It doesn't necessarily have to have uplifting lyrics to feel healing.

Evanescence "Hello"

Playground school bell rings again

Rain clouds come to play again

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello I am your mind giving you someone to talk to

Hello

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken

Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping

Hello I'm still here

All that's left of yesterday

(The lyrics don't do it the justice that Amy Lee's voice does!)

***

Kelly Clarkson "Addicted"

It's like you're a drug

It's like you're a demon I can't face down

It's like I'm stuck

It's like I'm running from you all the time

And I know I let you have all the power

It's like the only company I seek is misery all around

It's like you're a leech

Sucking the life from me

It's like I can't breathe

Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power

And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything

Nothing but you

I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think

Without you interrupting me

In my thoughts

In my dreams

You've taken over me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost

It's like I'm giving up slowly

It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me

Leave me alone

And I know these voices in my head

Are mine alone

And I know I'll never change my ways

If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything

Nothing but you

I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think

Without you interrupting me

In my thoughts

In my dreams

You've taken over me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you

I need a fix

I can't take it

Just one more hit

I promise I can deal with it

I'll handle it, quit it

Just one more time

Then that's it

Just a little bit more to get me through this

I'm hooked on you

I need a fix

I can't take it

Just one more hit

I promise I can deal with it

I'll handle it, quit it

Just one more time

Then that's it

Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything

Nothing but you

I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think

Without you interrupting me

In my thoughts

In my dreams

You've taken over me

It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm not me

***

Alanis Morrissette "Narcissus"

Dear momma's boy I know you've had your butt licked by your mother

I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her

And every woman graced with your presence after

Dear narcissus boy I know you've never really apologized for anything

I know you've never really taken responsibility

I know you've never really listened to a woman

Dear me-show boy I know you're not really into conflict resolution

Or seeing both sides of every equation

Or having an uninterrupted conversation

And any talk of healthiness

And any talk of connectedness

And any talk of resolving this

Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to love you

Try to love you when you really don't want me

To)

Dear egotist boy you've never really had to suffer any consequence

You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes

You'd never understand anyone showing resistance

Dear popular boy I know you're used to getting everything so easily

A stranger to the concept of reciprocity

People honor boys like you in this society

And any talk of selflessness

And any talk of working at this

And any talk of being of service

Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to help you try to help you

When you really don't want me to)

You go back to the women who will dance the dance

You go back to your friends who will lick your ass

You go back to ignoring all the rest of us

You go back to the center of your universe

Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you

I've never lasted very long with someone like you

I never did although I have to admit I wanted to

Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit

You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it

I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it

And any talk of willingness

And any talk of both feet in

And any talk of commitment

Leaves you running for the door

(why why do I try to change you try to

Try to change you when you really don't

Want me to)

You go back to the women who will dance the dance

You go back to your friends who will lick your ass

You go back to being so oblivious

You go back to the center of the universe

***

Alanis Morrissette "So Unsexy"

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly

One small sideways look and I feel so ungood

Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make

Me feel the way I thought only my father could

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me

One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked

How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily

I'm 13 again am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful

So unloved for someone so fine

I can feel so boring for someone so interesting

So ignorant for someone of sound mind

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me

One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated

Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me

Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

When will you stop leaving baby?

When will I stop deserting baby?

When will I start staying with myself?

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me

I jump my ship as I take it personally

Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly

The moment I decide not to abandon me

***

Lindsay Lohan "My Innocence"

I was born a fighter

I was born on a rainy day

I've had my share of pain

But you've missed most of that

So many other things you had to do

You looked after you

Do you remember what you did

Do you know just what you've missed?

Do you care about what I have to say?

You took my innocence away and never had a chance to

You broke me in with your mistakes and thanks for the break through

But you won't bring me down

I always come around

You took my innocence away but the best of me stayed

It could be your blood running through all my vains

That ties me to your fate

If I could just close my eyes

I'd blackout all the reasons why

We're still in this place

What you want is what you got

You should have tried to make it stop

I guess you couldn't find a way to let me learn

You took my innocence away and never had a chance to

You broke me in with your mistakes and thanks for the break through

But you won't bring me down

I always come around

You took my innocence away but the best of me stayed

Loneliness has filled my soul

And it creeps inside

It takes control

And I don't know how to begin giving up on everything

My innocence,

You took my innocence away

You took my innocence away and never had a chance to

You broke me in with your mistakes and thanks for the break through

But you won't bring me down

I always come around

You took my innocence away but the best of me stayed

The best of me stayed

But the best of me stayed

Oh, but the best of me stayed

***

Pink "Conversations With My 13 Year Old Self"

Conversations with my thirteen year old self

Conversations with my thirteen year old self

You're angry

I know this

The world couldn't care less

You're lonely

I feel this

And you wish you were the best

No teachers

Or guidance

And you always walk alone

You're crying

At night when

Nobody else is home

Come over here and let me hold your hand and hug you darling

I promise you that it won't always feel this bad

There are so many things I want to say to you

You're the girl I used to be

You little heartbroken thirteen year old me

You're laughing

But you're hiding

God I know that trick too well

You forget

That I've been you

And now I'm just the shell

I promise

I love you and

Everything will work out fine

Don't try to

Grow up yet

Oh just give it some time

The pain you feel is real you're not asleep but it's a nightmare

But you can wake up anytime

Oh don't lose your passion or the fighter that's inside of you

You're the girl I used to be

The pissed off complicated thirteen year old me

Conversations with my thirteen year old self

Conversations with my thirteen year old self

Until we meet again

Oh I wish you well oh

I wish you well

Little girl

Until we meet again

Oh

I wish you well

Little girl

I wish you well

Until we meet again

My little thirteen year old me

***

:trigger:

Hole "Teenage Whore"

When I was a teenage whore

My mother asked me

She said, "Baby, what more?

I give you plenty. What do you want more?

Baby, why are you a teenage whore?"

I said, "I feel so all alone and I, I wish I could die."

See the things you put me through and I, I wish I could die.

When I was a teenage whore

The rain came down like it never did before

I pay good money not to be ignored

Then why am I a teenage whore?

I've seen your repulsion and it looks real good on you

Tonight....what you put me through

Out of my house

Get out of my house

Get out of my house

Get out of my house

When I was a teenage whore

My mother asked me

She said, "Baby, what more?

I give you plenty. What do you want more?

Baby, why are you a teenage whore?"

I've seen your repulsion and it looks real good on you

I dont want to live what you had, you have put me through

I wanted that shirt and I, I wanted those pants

It's all that I put me through and I, I never had a...

why?

***

L7 "Shitlist"

When i get mad

And i get pissed

I grab my pen

And i write out a list

Of all the people

That won't be missed

You've made my shitlist

For all the ones

Who bum me out

Shitlist

For all the ones

Who fill my head with doubt

Shitlist

For all the squares who get me pissed

Shitlist

You've made my shitlist

Shitlist

Shitlist

When i get mad

And i get pissed

Shitlist

I grab my pen

And write out a list

Shitlist

Of all you assholes

Who won't be missed

Shitlist

You've made my shitlist

Shitlist

Shitlist

***

Vanessa Carlton "The Wreckage"

Speeding

Into the horizon

Dreaming of the siren

Wishing for her broken glass on the highway

It could be so easy

The rhythm

Rhythm of an engine

Always makes me empty

I see the headlights coming at me

I can’t help but wonder

Flying

Flying in slow motion

Wind through my hair

And ripping through the scenery, oh, the wreckage

It is my secret need

Speeding

Into the horizon

Dreaming of the siren

Wishing for her broken glass on the highway

It could be so easy

***

Babes in Toyland "Mother"

Mother

This is my life

Sister

Come and take my life

You are obscene and you know it

I run from me and it shows

That's what you like me for, huh, sister

Crawling now on the floor

Do you like it

Sister

Mother

This is my life

Sister

Come and take my life

You are obscene and you know it

I run from you and it shows

That's what you like me for, huh, sister

Crawling now on the floor

Do you like it

Sister

You are me

You are me

***

:trigger:

Poe "Not a Virgin"

I'm not a virgin anymore

I just thought you should know

Darlin', I been around

Yeah, I've been up and down your block

In fact, I have been all over town

Down by the lake

And underneath the table in my living room

Outside by the blue, blue moon

You can call me what you will

Call me a slut, call me a jaded pill

Darlin', I've got your number now

I'm not a virgin anymore

I've been taken

I've been hung up, I get down

And start it over again

I've been opened

I've been closed like a book

And burned out like a written sin

I just thought you should know, my darlin', before we begin

I'm not a virgin anymore

Just thought you should know

Before you let another lie get through your crooked little teeth

I don't think you wanna start that shit with me

Much better yet, tell me something dangerous and true

Oh yeah, that looks much sexier on you

Careful what it is you say

'Cause I can see right through you on a cloudy day

And darlin', I think you wanna play

I'm not a virgin anymore

I've been taken

I've been hung up, I get down

And start it over again

I've been opened

I've been closed like a book

And burned out like a written sin

So if you wanna play dirty, my darlin', I'm gonna win

I'm not a virgin anymore

Uh-uh, uh-uh, uh-uh

Been there, done that, say what?

Get the hang of it

Guess who got screwed?

You

I had a whole lot of fun with it

I've had enough now

So you better take a bow

It's gonna be a new experience

If you wanna play with me

Daisy chains and Mary Janes

Fairy tales cannot fool me now

I just thought you should know

"Shut up, I tell you"

Yeah, right

Whatever, dude

Oh, I've been taken

I've been hung up, I get down

And start it over again

I've been opened

I've been closed like a book

And burned out like a written sin

Hell, I've been divided

Out of my mind and reinvented again

I've been ignited and then uninvited

So honey, you break it up, I'm gonna put it back together again

I just thought you should know, my darlin', before we begin

I'm not a virgin anymore

Oh, sir, I'm sorry

I'm sorry

Do you get the gist of the song now

***

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P!nk ~ "Nobody knows"

Nobody knows

Nobody knows but me

That I sometimes cry

If I could pretend that I'm asleep

When my tears start to fall

I peek out from behind these walls

I think nobody knows

Nobody knows no

Nobody likes

Nobody likes to lose their inner voice

The one I used to hear before my life

Made a choice

But I think nobody knows

No no

Nobody knows

No

Baby

Oh the secret's safe with me

There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be

And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone

Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown

And I've lost my way back home

I think nobody knows no

I said nobody knows

Nobody cares

It's win or lose not how you play the game

And the road to darkness has a way

Of always knowing my name

But I think nobody knows

No no

Nobody knows no no no no

Baby

Oh the secret's safe with me

There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be

And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone

Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown

And I've lost my way back home

And oh no no no no

Nobody knows

No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend

I'll wake up and start all over again

When everybody else is gone

No no no

Nobody knows

Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart

The way I do when I'm lying in the dark

And the world is asleep

I think nobody knows

Nobody knows

Nobody knows but me

Me

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P!nk ~ Long way to happy

One night to you

Lasted six weeks for me

Just a bitter little pill now

Just to try to go to sleep

No more waking up to innocence

Say hello to hesitance

To everyone I meet

Thanks to you years ago

I guess I'll never know

What love means to me but oh

I'll keep on rolling down this road

But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love

It's gonna take a lot to hold on

It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah

Left in the pieces that you broke me into

Torn apart but now I've got to

Keep on rolling like a stone

Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind

In a roll away bed

Everything was so damn simple

Now I'm losing my head

Trying to cover up the damage

And pad out all the bruises

too young to know i had it

So it didn't hurt to lose it

Didn't hurt to lose it

No but oh

I'll keep on rolling down this road

But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love

It's gonna take a lot to hold on

It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah

Left in the pieces that you broke me into

Torn apart but now I've got to

Keep on rolling like a stone

Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing

But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name

I just want to thank you

Thank you

From the bottom of my heart

For all the sleepless nights

And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love

It's gonna take a lot to hold on

It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah

Left in the pieces that you broke me into

Torn apart but now I've got to

Keep on rolling like a stone

Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love

It's gonna take a lot to hold on

It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah

Left in the pieces that you broke me into

Torn apart but now I've got to

Keep on rolling like a stone

'cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

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