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Anybody else have weird triggers?

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the sound of vibrating phones, loud (sudden) noises, certain songs, the movie "blue valentine", talk/scenes of sex or anything intimate, not being able to move freely, being touched by people i don't know, etc

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When someone says "Ssssshhhhh" (as in "be quiet").

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*having nothing in my mind going on
*being photographed or filmed (trying to get over it recently)
*law and order svu
*really young kids
*certain smells
*really bad hyperhidrosis moments where i cant do anything
*people having sex in front of me and couples with good relationships
*anything reminding me how empty i am
*when someone doesn't understand what i'm saying
*really innocent girls even ones my own age
*some older women

all i can think of right now.
i find learning about photography, sex etc makes me to look at things and just focus on technical aspects and distracts me from what happend, i dont talk about them though.
thanks for starting this

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My Trigger,

Someone being nice to me, I feel like i am being set up, ready to be humiliated again.
This deosnt have to be in person, sometimes it happens when Im chatting online and a bloke gets too friendly.

Stupid huh..?!

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[quote name='*Belle*' timestamp='1328024089' post='1574430']
My Trigger,

Someone being nice to me, I feel like i am being set up, ready to be humiliated again.
This deosnt have to be in person, sometimes it happens when Im chatting online and a bloke gets too friendly.

Stupid huh..?!
[/quote]

this makes me nervous too

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men with beards
crowds, esp. hostile or drunk crowds
people who act as though they don't believe me or care what I'm saying
people who are judgmental about the way women dress or their loose morals

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yes, it sounds racist, but I'm working with it with my T

indian dudes, esp with mustaches. I have to work with one, reminds me of my attacker. It almost makes work too much at times.

white suv, his car

the street where his business is located

at times, not often, but sometimes, my own body, due to body memories, or just memories

news stories on s.a.

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I had been doing pretty well with triggers, but some new ones have reared their heads lately. :-/ My usual ones though are...

- Certain scents of aftershaves / colognes.
- Being held down ( Being held down by my arms / wrists is especially triggering... ).
- Being belittled and ridiculed.

The worse one at the moment though has to be my ridiculous reaction to ejaculate... I know it's just cells... things floating in plastic bags almost if you will... but... it freaks me out too much at times to the point that I feel incredibly nauseated... I've tried working on it myself, but I've not told my boyfriend about it yet... I don't want to offend him or upset him. So... this is my next trigger to over come. Just not sure yet how to go about it!

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Glasses. My uncle wore this very particular style of glasses. I remember referring to them as "creepy glasses". They still haunt me.
Mineral water. Their water had a lot of calcium in it. I remember him bathing me in it a lot...it has a certain smell, believe it or not.
Red Caravan's.
Shaved pubic hair.
Being touched
Red walls
The color red in general
Closets
Bathrooms
Ripped towels
Uniforms


There's just so many. I could list them forever.

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a recent one that's developed has been "how i met your mother"
not always but some episodes just make me really upset and my mind starts racing

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I was curious to see someone else calls themself "little girl lost" as I have always said that if I ever wrote a book I would call it Little Girl Lost. I was physically (not sexually) and mentally abused by my father until I was l8 and moved out of my house. He was never mad at me he was mad at my mother and took it out on my sister and I. There was a VERY traumatic incident when I was l8 that involved a gun. I have never felt that I am good enough. I always feel alone inside and empty. I feel like a failure even though I have done and accomplished many good things in my life. Don't think I will ever feel worthy or good. Was sexually abused a week ago by a neighbor. I am now 59 years old and am still trying to figure out exactly how to feel. Was married 36 years with no actual abuse...just husband was at work all the time and I raised our 2 children basically alone. After a divorce I met the most mentally abusive person I have ever been around in my life. I spent l2 years taking this abuse...all mental except one occasion of fracturing my cheek. I seem to have a hard time leaving people who treat me like I am no one. I I sworn to myself that I will NEVER do that again. I will live alone and enjoy friends and family. Men represent sadness to me.

Ryah

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The color Country Blue. The couch I stared at to hypnotise myself and dissociate was that color.
Loud noises
a man's loud tone in his voice (even though I can't stand a quiet man) - so weird.
Having my back open and available to be walked up behind.
crowds
the smell of black licorice.

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Cabbage patch dolls....
a certain foam mattress
Ants (yes the little bug)
The song Informer by snow
and there are a few places in town that cause triggers for me

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Can only say Star Wars and Blue Ford Fiestas right now.

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Hi there. my triggers include: being forced on to a bed, really bad since my current boyfriend thinks its fun, seeing my old house, being grabbed on the back of my neck, sleeping in the same bed as my boyfriend, anyone called matt, colin or rodney. Alcohol triggers me really bad, whether im drinking or other people are, especially if they offer to make me one.

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Massive hoop earrings

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Hm, I seem to have bunches of rather odd ones. Specifically:
Joss sticks
Jumper cables
Pink Floyd
Sharing drinks
Beetles (the car)

I know there's more but I can't seem to think of them right now.

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A bed sheet that is half on and half off
Purple ceilings
Patterned glass

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My old job, certain songs too painful to name, blue moon, seat belts, and I haven't found all mine yet

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haircuts, sticky-tape, aftershave smell, orange soda, smell alcohol.
And coldness.

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Being naked
Not wearing a bra
Money
His handwriting
Men in positions of trust (ie: teachers, therapists, family)

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Last week... in a dentist's chair, resulting in a full blown panic attack and thinking that I was crazy.

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Whenever I hear about bishop Vangheluwe (I really think I can name him because what he did is public), who commited CSA and gave an interview last year that re-traumatized me.
Fire stairs and stair workers, the underground, police series, police in general, gyneacologists (which is not that weird), people who yell or raise their voices, sometimes music, train stations (especially in the capital city), sometimes men in trust positions, sometimes being alone at home (especially when it's dark or raining outside), people who keep saying they love me and expect me to do so, low ceilings, doing self defence exercises, being called 'slut' or other names on the street,...

EDIT: I was brought aware about the fact that Vangheluwe is not well-known (in an international context). He did admit having abused kids. This is the wikipedia page on him:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roger_Vangheluwe

Please take care when reading it; it can trigger. You can also find bbc articles about him; just google 'vangheluwe bbc' or something. Edited by Cherline

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Wierdest trigger ever: tomatoes! It's terrible since I want to live in Belize when I graduate, but at least I'm starting to get better with it.

Other weird ones: lying on wood floors, orange ceiling lights, big hands, "Ain't that America" song, unfortunately Nora Jones, and people with moles in their eyes.

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